my body

I feel like he doesn't like my body. He never tells me im beautiful anymore. He calls me cute all the time, but never sexy or beautiful. I ceased to feel anything much about him now. I miss him when i don't see him. But that urge to always be with him is gone. I have my friends and my life and I'm fine with that. Yet, i know i love him deeply...it's just masked by the lack of communication between us. I just want a break from all the fighting. I know that I can't live if he's not in my life. I hope I get back my feelings soon enough. Until then,
hope i survive.
The real reason is my poor body image. I think im too skinny. But i know my body isnt too bad. If only i had nicer, whiter skin. Not too white, but a nice tan colour. But what can i do? Poor body image wont stop even if i had teh loveliest body. Look at all those confident fat ppl and low self-esteem skinny girls. When i come back from canada i will be beautiful and sexy. Just you wait.