Positivity

I lost my temper again last night. I think I have some serious anger issues, probably genetic. My dad hurt my mom physically and she hurt him back emotionally. And I think I've got more of the emotional abuse than the physical. I love T, i really do. It's just that he irritates me so badly sometimes. Why is that?

If one of my friends did the same thing he was doing i would just let it go immediately. But with him I expect so much more. So much that even he can't keep up with them. 'The problem is not with him, but with me. I need drama in my life. If there isn't any I create it. But I need to cut back on all that right away. I hurt him so much that eventually he's going to be too hurt to recover. I dont want to keep hurting him and breaking his sprit little by little.

And it all starts with the negative thinking. Like right now Im thinking that T's parents hate me...And i'm eventually going to manifest that into reality cuz Im thinking too much. I just have to let it go and not dwell on thoughts like that. I need to build up my confidence through positivity.