Thank you

God always gives me what I pray for, eventually. Last week I was feeling so low I began to understand why some people consider suicide. This week I feel happy and content in my situation. True, many things in my life are not normal. I don't have such a close relationship with my brothers that they call me everyday, I've even fallen out with one of my brothers so badly that I barely speak to him. There are many odd things about my life once I look closely. But the important thing I realized is that there is no such thing as "normal". There's only "is", as in "this is it". This is MY life. Nobody else has the exact same life as I do, and nobody else will get to experience the same thrills, joys, tears and delights as I do. Nor will i get to experience someone elses. But essentially, we go through similar experiences and that's what makes us relate to each other.

I just want to thank God for everything he helps me with. I want to thank him for life. He gives meaning to what I do, because there are times when I have wondered what's the point in everything I do. But now I can only take delight in it because I know im headed somewhere that God wants me to be headed in. That direction can only be good because he knows exactly where I need to be. So I trust him, I will wait on him, I will devote my life to him, hand everything over, and wait for him to do what he will with me. I pray that he turns me into his image to do whatever he will with me. Thank you God, for everything.