My life is so complicated right now. Well, no. My emotions are complicated. If i let them rule me, they are bound to take over and consume me because they're so conflicted and convoluted. I wish things in life were simple and straightforward again. I remember when I used to come back home from school and my mom was waiting to feed me, a maid was waiting to play with me, i would shower and play and just carry on until night. Waking up the next day and repeating the same thing wasn't so difficult or tedious. Maybe that's why i love the song "Buy you a drank" by T Pain. It's so simple and how it basically should be. He sees a girl she likes, buys her a drink, takes her home with him and has sex until the sun comes up. He's satisfying himself and her and it doesn't involve any complicated explanations about how 'he's too tired form work to please her, or how he doesnt have enough money to buy her a drink, or how he can't make any noise at his house cuz his parents are sleeping in the next room. It's just simple, and very unrealistic...i know. But sometimes i NEED unrealistic and simple.
I think the only way to make things simple is to consult god before every decision i make. He takes care of me and he won't let me take a wrong step. So that's what im gonna do. Hopefully it'll all be good now.
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