letter to him

Hey,

I love you and I want to be with you, but there are a few things that constantly bug me. I just wanted to say it in email so I can get everything out without you interrupting me, and so i can say everything clearly to you. There are 2 things that really bother me, and i think most of our arguments are because of this. One thing is that you don't keep your word. You say you'll change the time on the alarm to 6.15 and the next morning i find out you didn't, or you'll tell me you'll come over and you won't, or you say you have something planned for valentines day but you don't and you don't bother to make different plans, or you'll say you will stay all day on sunday but you wont..etc. You know there has been many, many times when you didn't do what you said you will. Why is that? I feel really unimportant when you say something and don't go to the trouble of keeping your word. Like you'll say you will come over tomorrow but suddenly you'll feel like staying home and then there's a million reasons why you absolutely CANNOT come over (petrol, lots of work to do, tired, sleepy, feeling sick, have to wake up early tomorrow). If you say you will come over a couple hours before, what can possibly change that makes it impossible for you to keep your word? I understand if it's something really big like you were in a car accident or something (touch wood), but other than that, if you say you'll do something then can you please do it?

The 2nd thing is sex. It's just so much hassle, too much trouble, and just a heartache for me. It's painfully obvious to me that you don't really like sex that much...i don't knw if it's just with me or in general. Maybe you're tired and stressed, okay, but we haven't had sex in like weeks and i dont think that's normal in ppl our age? I don't really know and i've accepted that it won't change. I guess it's just not meant to be a big part of our relationship. But it bugs me cuz i know im not ugly and i dont really understand what the heck is going on. And when we do have sex I enjoy it and it's really good so there's no reason why you wouldn't wanna repeat that right? I've realized that I'm not happy like this...i want to feel wanted by the person i love. You need to figure out if you can make me happy or not. If you can't then tell me now cuz i want to know. Well, just reply to me by email cuz if we talk on the phone nothing will get sorted out. Hope you're having a nice day.