I've realized that tommy really loves me. Whether it's just the lengths he goes to to not make me mad, or how he puts up with me when I'm moody by excusing my behaviour, and how he really does want to make me happy but it clueless about how to do it. He rarely ever eats over here now because he thinks that I dont want to cook for him and spend a lot of money on food. I feel really bad about it..and as soon as exams are over i'll cook a nice meal for him and treat him nice. 

The thing is, he shouldn't put up with all this from me. I'm being controlling and obsessive and get mad at him even when he hasn't done something bad enough to deserve such a reaction. Like the time he went outside for a bbq and i was so mad he wouldn't come and stay with me. Why should he have to always do what i want? If he wants to hang out outside he should be able to without me being mean about it. And the thing is he can't even say anything cuz he's staying with me now so he sort of follows the rules and goes along with it. But i really shouldnt get used to this. If i love him i should respect him and his free will and let him do what he wants. 

The only things that are unacceptable are cheating and lying to me.