So it's Sunday today. My 3rd Sunday in England...and the 3rd Sunday I haven't gone to church. I'm hoping to go this evening but not sure if i'll make it out the door in the end. These 2 weeks have gone by relatively fast, but slow at the same time. It was such a mix of emotions that i felt since the day i landed that I just don't know what to do with myself now. First I was horribly lonely and homesick, then i started to warm upto tommy and felt that things will be okay, then i felt pretty good, and now i'm just bored and wishing that I had more friends in bham to go out and have fun with. I'm also having a hard time keeping my mouth shut when it comes to tommy. I can't stop criticizing him and his ways. The way he doesn't take showers regularly, the way he dresses in the same pair of unwashed jeans day after day, the way he doesnt turn over the dishes after washing them so they can dry...the list goes on. I know I shouldnt judge him...but he really gets on my nerves sometimes. I feel like i have to stay with him now just for the fact that i'll be bored out of my mind if he wasn't here. I seriously doubt it's going to last very much longer though.
Looking back on my previous few blogs I noticed that I'm always discontent in my current situation and looking forward to the future. Why is that? I wanted to go to England and do "productive things" so badly when I was in Virginia, stuck in the same routine. But now that I'm here, I miss the babies and the warm, comfy niche I had there. Is there any solution except to learn to like where I'm at? I guess not. The past 8 years since I came to Canada went by so fast, and with those years my confidence, personality, and attitude had improved tremendously. Looking back, the changes were slow but progressive. And I just need to trust God that he'll finish the good work he had started. I really pray that you would teach me to be patient and content in my situation and do everything to bring glory unto your name God.
"..being confident of this, that he who began a good work in you will carry it on to completion until the day of Christ Jesus."
Phillipians 1:6
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