Everything's going badly. I drank, i misbehaved, i repeated the whole palaver. Feel tremendously depressed and guilty right now, and yes, lonely as well. I guess I'm lonely now because sin separates me from God, and I don't have his companionship anymore. I was fine last week when the circumstances were the same. Sin and disobedience is not worth the price if this is how i feel the next day.
My head is so convoluted right now, a million thoughts going through it that I struggle to put a coherent sentence together. I'm realizing a few things now, that I have to get up and keep going when I fall, and that I will definitely fall again, the only way to avoid falling so much is to completely rely on God and listen to what he says. I feel like too much of a failure to even put a decent finish to this blog so I'm going to go get ready for work. Wish me luck, dear void.
